FEARS AND TEARS

I fought my way back

To the far depths of my mind

I saw two peopleSitting on their throne

Welcoming those who came

To visit at their throne

Perhaps to see If king and queen

Might dain to come see

See their kingdom

But I saw something

An aloneness, a wasting

What was it

Ah, I do believe I see

Where lonesome eyes

Do wanderTo their own past

To a small boy and girl

Who loved and tried to love

Everything about them

It was not to be

The girl became an angel

So very early on, barely twelve

Hatred closed the door

On any kind of good life

The boy tried and cried

Cried and tried

But in the end, learned

He was told he was stupid

A criminal in the making

I learned to walk the line

I learned to hate

Just like my mother

So I left them to themselves

They saw the emptiness

As empty as my heart for them

Now I face that trial too

Children lost from happiness

Is there hatred there too

Perhaps..... I did learn well

Change, what a joke

I wanted the heritage to end

End with me and 'my own' life

It didn't, for like a very wet clay

It slipped through my fingers

Into my everyday

Now I must pay the price

I sit alone on my throne

At least to any one of them

I know the loneliness, I feel it

I will erase myself from memory

Perhaps that will end the legacy

Allow new children to laugh and love

Be happy, and live with love

.feb 6,2010 dave c